Poetry of Jonny Alexander Nay

Nate Margetze

I have more courage, than I can express.  But not enough, to make you seem less.  I don't want to last, until, I end,  or someone makes me seem,  like, I can't be what I was.  I have more courage, than I can express. I can't wish upon, a will, that ends, like money, retired, upon the claim, so still. Its, so still, still, not enough make me want to shake my arms around. No. I don't I can't, I can't make it seem as if their, is not at something which makes me want to trust.  I would.    I would.    I would.    I promise, if I had the opportunity, to make, this a final.  Means, to ask.    I would say, depart upon, that way it blasts.  the way it makes you sound more, like a passing thing.  Or life a dream.  I have more courage than I can express.  But not enough to end, this scene,  the way I am standing here,  in the middle of a scene.  No, I wouldn't make it seem.

 We are too ourselves

 No one is calling my name anymore,  from the back of the house, where lilac, blooms our boisterous achievement.    good to know you!  to close to understanding.  or realization maybe?  no way, it's just as it is.    A spiritual concept: seasons.  

 I don't know how all of this stuff, got spread out over time like this.  I swear I was trying to meet where you were at, but I got selfish, in asking you to go out and enjoy the sunset.  Just once, you heathen.    I cause something, you see as pernicious.   and something is lost between us.  something close to the sunset,  or the jump between, enjoyment.    when we getting close to talking: really...  it was a fault? no way.   not all that bad.   

The mountains swell and lay constant everthere grows tress I remember through which water flows this is beyond vision hides there in the unseen exists, pulsing, beating, inebriated on blood and water. A natural law Everything is bowing sways in the current of earth's orbit I am in awe She has given up the cross remarking, "Don't you wish you could grab that there, hold it somewhere close inside of you, forever." Why even answer?  

They have bright little cans,  A prehistoric green.  Tanks of crustaceans,  snacks like some chips and salsa.  Ice-cream, pops,  Piantas on the top self,  Next to hats, belts, And curly dresses for young girls With tails, ribbons of a deep red.  By the counter there’s a woman whose beautiful skin, Is brown, and has a pot of flowers,  That i’d like to buy to walk home with.

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The arm, that moves, to wait. is harm. The light that shines is day. Part of this, is true, but who will dare to say?

I, bomber of an ancient rhythm, the fallen sun, and the sunken rung. And the hurt, and hurted, mastery. I am can undergo. But I cannot undertake, my masters wishes. Because of the faith, that it displays, on itself. The master is the best of the best, and it's not within me to judge, his curtailing, and forgoing. I am the messenger, of the old, way. I am the esteemed, and the crop, and the cream. And I candidly, decline. I do not shake, or shine, my way, Like so many of us had, their holdings, displaced, and had their lives most completely, and totally, and utterly, destroyed. I am the light, that falls, on walls, and the only thing, which stands in the way. I am cursed, but I am fair, and I lost, and Sig-none-Fair I am in my mind, a lot these days. I am not but I can dare.

I want to sing sonnets to myself. Even though I know, love, is burned in the light, and spread out in, curled, like a river, in silence: love finds darkness.

Down by the river banks, by the medical bag, and the white pots. I think, I see, a black owl. That is looking at me through it's eyes, through me? (I'll never forget.) Into it's eyes? Why me? I am not here, I say into the water. That glides, and blurps, beneath itself? Am I more than, this moment? Thank god, I am not. I am keeping a journal, about how the thunder claps, and the freaks, come out: to make orgys, in the rain. I am a husk. Poor me, all burnt out. I can't be what I want, And what I am, is in the for-sale window (he means display window) down at mister Oh' Malleys. Do I become the death, I wish into see in the tall grasses. Where, the fox, coos. Lord knows I tried. And did not try.

for my life, comes, the end of climate change. I will spend it in quiet reflection, with my back, I will dig graves. and with my arms, raise, the pick, with my mouth, taste, the shout.

Faith is the movement, to move.  past the chimes, at windows,  or the floor, the carpet, I saw in the courthouse.  past the hair on their neck, past names... past blame... into the furniture of life, where we are waiting, past the cotton, and the chimes. past, the guard, I suppose. into the cup, that's drunk by everyone. I am supposing. 

Children need to live, and the old need to be. But they also need to speak to one another. wisdom, and wise men, don't belong, in society. But realizing, this, and giving yourself. the time to recognize this. Is, part of learning to dance. Which is a gem of a life. To sleep in the streets, is the only way to know the world after-all. and people that come to our door, we know, are dressed for the occasion. Whether they are selling, perfume, or carrying a casserole. After-all, church is just good company. Like, a paradox, that breeds in shadows.

Ideas, come out, from underneath us, as if we didn't, know, at all.

There is no room out there?  all is full of still, Love.  And an ancient stone,  the waves, blue,  and the sky.  above me, on this cold, road:  I can see. 

How many hours, lost, in confusion.  To return, shadow, of an image,  Of the moon.  Wading through, your heart,  that lonely ocean,  Of the dark.  To bend, in tune, with:  Loss and Wound,  To hold-in light, and  Never Bloom.  — —  I love your back!  And your sweet head... Resting on your shoulder, my hand, in stead:  “Brother, Sister”  And you are loved, and I do love. So may I give you this,  my sweetest kiss And you become the dove.

What is he doing out there,  Running by moonlight?  Underneath the big tree,  With a ring, And a song.  “Oh mother”  He says,  What a freak.